Hello friends and family,
Things are improving for me. I had my birthday last week, and it was a fabulous day full of love and fun. I lunched by a river with my friend Tom, weeded my patio and visited with my favorite kitty, meditated, did yoga, and had a party at the Marpa House with my Buddhist friends and my Buddhist teacher. It was lovely lovely
As well, my body is working much better. I still have big ups and downs. Last week I was sick all week, I think from eating poorly and overdoing the exercise last weekend. I never know from one day to the next whether or not I'll be walking just fine or whether or not my belly will feel OK. But, if I take care with what I eat and drink, avoiding red meat, dairy, gluten, soy, too much sugar, too much alcohol and overeating, I feel OK. And, I've been climbing again. Woohoo! I can't overdo it. I did last weekend and suffered the entire week. As long as I go easy on myself, I'm fine. I have pain when I climb, especially when I put a lot of pressure on my ankles. It's much easier for me to climb steeper terrain. Hiking is OK as long as I don't go very far.
It's very interesting to watch myself slowly slowly heal. I've become very in tune with my body. When I ignore it, I have pain and I suffer. If I pay close attention to when I'm hungry, when I need to exercise (I do yoga four days per week), and when I need to rest, I feel OK. As well, taking care of my mind is incredibly important. Despite experiencing a very painful and sad breakup with my favorite person in the world, I'm actually feeling balanced. I'm present with the pain, for the most part. On occasion I go off on tangents, blaming myself or her or getting angry. But overall, I find I'm just sad. And it's OK. I love my Buddhist practice for what it has taught me--some peace, balance, harmony with myself, love for myself.
I think also the Travacor and Excitacor I'm taking has done wonders to balance my brain chemistry, making it easier for me to actually be balanced. These natural aminos/vitamins help raise the levels of seratonin, epinephrine, and dopamine in my brain. My life-long struggle with depression likely is a result of low levels of these things, according to my naturopath. And, considering how OK I have been throughout the process of my illness and breakup, I think there's a lot of validity to her diagnosis and prescription. It's awesome that I feel OK.
Love and hugs to all my family and friends,
ps. I'll be doing some cool things this month. I'm heading to New Hampshire for a women's climbing weekend, where I'll be teaching. I'll be sure to post a bunch of photos.
pps. thanks so much to all the people who have been so supportive of me through this process. Much love!
1 year ago